
Last time I blogged, I was pretty excited about having the internet. I had this suspicion that I might actually be more consistent in my blogging. That has obviously not been the case. So, in an effort to work on my very lackluster discipline, I'm going to set a specific, achievable, practical, and measurable goal for my situation. I'm going to blog for one week without fail. If I fail... hmm... I can't think of what I'll do, but I'll do something...
This week at a glance (so far)...
1. Gave plasma for the first time and it wasn't nearly as lucrative as you may think. But it will still be worth my time from this point forward. Give 2x a week and earn some pittance that can go toward my astronomical gas bill.
2. First Sunday that I did my own message to the youth - Magnifying grace - It was pretty much a rip off of what my church in Greenville did for their core values series. I thought it was so good, I decided to to do it myself! Good thing too, we saw 2 students come to know Christ! Now to disciple them...
3. Misti left town - which has meant a ridiculously out of balance schedule. I'm getting a taste of what life would be like without her and Ella, and it's not pretty.
4. Lots of prep work that makes me feel like I'm not getting anything done for the Youth group.
5. Discouragement in the wake of seeing Jesus move. This is the inevitable curse of the evangelist.
I love sharing the gospel. It is literally a fun activity for me, and yet after the rush of the experience comes the inevitable lows, at which point comes the attack from the evil one. My Spirit is attacked at it's lowest, which means lies and accusations - lazy, no one really likes you, you're not actually doing your job, you're not living up to God's expectations, blah, blah... blah, blah! It's depressing and being alone without Misti isn't helping any. I've stayed pure, my mind hasn't been roaming for something poisonous to devour - I guess, mostly my spirit is lonely. This is one of those times when having friends would be nice.
You know, it just occurred to me that I fell right smack dab into the trap. I've been so morose in my cold house that I haven't thought of anyone or anything else. Just my own sorry state. Sure it'd be nice to have friends that I can hang with, but I don't! I guess it's time to get over it and spend some time with Jesus instead.