Sleep... who knew how good it could be?!

I must say, sleep does a body good. There's something to be said for the great deal of energy that surges through my veins as soon as good rest comes my way. It's like I'm getting the energy of weeks and months previously lost, back into my body. It's absolutely wonderful!
To give a slight update on my dear wife and the situation from before, I've found out that as usual, I was incorrect in my assessment. I wasn't far off, but I was off none the less. Turns out she's just feeling a little down in the dumps (well, she was). I think that a good bit of the dumps were caused by an overestimation of all that she should have gotten done. Meaning, when she didn't succeed in doing it, she felt let down and disappointed. She's such an interesting woman, and I'm finding out more and more how wildly fantastic and diverse my lack of knowledge concerning her really is. I must admit it's somewhat invigorating getting to explore the depths of her heart and mind, searching and finding out so many new things that I'd never even considered.
Finally, I must confess my spiritual life has been abismal since the week before my buddies came for the bachleor party. I'm talking nearly a month and half... maybe two, of just dry bones baking and bleaching in the desert sun. Over the last week I've begun to sense this desire to seek the word, and as the week has gone on the desire has strengthened and grown to the point that all day yesterday, I wanted to not do the things I was supposed to do and just spend the day with God. Forget church! Forget my Meetings! Forget my training! Just read, pray and study; study, read and pray... then I remembered those are all responsibilities I promised and they (the meetings) look forward to every sunday. Well, the long and short of it, is that I did it anyway, I just took Paul (my 12 o'clock) along with me.
All day today I've been yearning to understand why I don't pray, and I came back to this Idea of, "I don't pray because I'm afraid God will fail to come through, and I'm afraid what that will do to me... and what's more, I'm afraid he may actually answer me, and I won't know what category to put that in -- a GOD WHO LISTENS, then actually ANSWERS BACK!!!" And as I wrestled with it, I came back to the first desire of my heart -- God's Word! Jn 15:5-8 [I'm not going to quote the whole thing] "If you remain in me and my words in you... everything you ask for will be given to you... because it will bring Glory to God." I'm not sure if that's the exact quote I don't have a bible near me, but that's the essence of it. When I know and am bathing in god's word like it's a bath full of heavenly water than the very things I ask for will be the very things that God WANTS me to have. I won't ask for things that don't matter to Him because they ultimately won't matter to ME!!! But to do that I HAVE TO remain in HIM... and His WORD must DWELL in ME!!!
I know it's stupid and simple, probably as basic as the cross itself, but it's what I needed to hear and it excites me greatly to know that even in my disobedience God is faithful, and He is personal... not allowing me to stray so far from him that I'm left with nothing to give to anyone, and nothing to draw on even from myself. I do Love the Lord!