With thanks to Pillar

I learned something new today. Well, maybe that's an overstatement - more correctly, I remembered a very important thing today that had been sitting on my heart for the last couple of weeks or so. It's about love, so be prepared.

the last couple of nights I've been trying to finish the book, Red by Ted Dekker. Without giving too much away it's a series (Black - fall, Red - Salvation, White - heaven) about salvation history, just put into a different light. It's easy to follow, and has been a REally interesting read. With that said however, I've been having a tough time finishing this book. I don't know why, I just have been. Now, as I was sitting around the house today on my day off, doing very little productive work, but thinking none the less and I was hit by something we were looking at over the bible study I've been leading with my HS Junior Fella's, Gal. 2:20.

Something about that verse was really sticking in my head and I couldn't place it so I sat and contemplated until I saw what the Lord was trying to tell me. Turns out, he was telling me the same stuff that I'd been hearing from him for some time now: keep working to worship. I don't know if this makes sense at all, but I'm telling you what... that's the kind of word that makes my heart rejoice. Here's how I got there:

1. I have been crucified with Christ
2. I no longer live this life in the flesh
3. I now live by faith in Christ (the son god, who gave himself for me)

Man. He really gave himself for me! He really died so, that I can live with him. I realized that MY life is a crucified life; my heart is Christ's alone! If I'm anything else, I'm not living the life that I've been given to live. It's dawning on me that there is no middle ground, there is no lukewarm, there is no safety. There is crucified or not. There is worship or there is not.

Well, for anyone reading this and not able to comprehend a thing I'm saying, don't worry about it. You're not alone. I don't quite have it nailed down myself. Right now, the thought balloons are still floating in the air. I see what they are, and I see the strings and how they probably relate to each other, but I don't quite have them tied down to the ground yet. Anyway, thanks for getting me thinking Pillar. At least if I'm not going to be doing anything terribly productive, I can think on the excellencies of God!